Mary Ann Honaker

OUR COUNTRY IS DYING

The ceaseless ants do not sense a threat, and

continue to build their mounds of sand.  Whom

should they fear?  Birds appropriate seeds, do

 

their tiered mating calls from tree to shrub. I

watch the leaves nod.  Time is only time.  Call

to the steep cliff; it will answer.  In my

 

house I have blankets, tea, no enemy.

Sky portions out its portions of rain.  An

unseasonal drought, the sky an enemy.

 

Who stuffs her reason under her fear?  Must

we?  The light drops a gear, soon we'll be

closed up in night's cloak. We are all worthy,

 

clocked in on the planet's time clock of

years.  Is there to be an engagement?

I will engage my skin to light. I

 

won't pluck the rose, because it's your turn

to bend to it.  Our years are clipped, so in

them bask.  In them scream.  In them nap, and the

 

rivers will flow from any direction.

My mind has an ocean in it, it's of

night, stars on water.  There I drown. The

 

night and day change places, hover. Sun

leaves us: but it still shines elsewhere, and

night, that huge bear, paces the globe.  We keep

 

still as night passes over, keeps walking.

We have loneliness in common; it’s

a curious bell jar.  In common we hold the

 

change of autumn light, winter's scrim on heart.

In common the earth breaking in spring, that

cracking that breaks us open too, asks

 

how much hurt is worth it to live. In the

summer, we buzz like trapped bees and question

less.  The moon is there and then it's not.

I look for shine and find a scratch in my

sky instead.  Full moons make us furious.

Do we listen to the heart or mind?--

 

a question we share.  Salt air, how the

scent of it humbles.  Immensity, heart,

pulses in the night, and the sea at night is

 

overwhelm.  Galaxies above, and the

deeps below.  They say it makes us smaller,

but I say we expand, we are cousin

 

or closer to the furthest blue star of

the heavens we can't with the naked eye, the

largest telescope, see.  We are the sun.

We are the earth, when it turns, we with it

turn.  We are the hawk's fine-tuned eye which sees

the chipmunk, and we are the chipmunk, and

 

no one steps to the edge of what she knows.

Everything is me; I am everything.

This goes for you too, and for the fly, it

 

goes.  All is One. Imagine what god hears!

God hears how my cat hears my smashing the

keyboard keys. God hears my tuneless gnashing

 

teeth in sleep, my teeth's vibrations, even.

God hears the tree's heartwood tremble as

the storm rumbles.  What is it?  We're all it.

 

Our country is dying, the nation hears.

The universe expands; the sun burns, the

fuel is limited.  To be is a blessing

 

in this iteration.  Others follow. The

cycles are endless, cold or fire a door.

Someone breathes a long exhale. We go to

 

the end of it. Then the long inhale. The

exhale has a bit to go, in my mind.

Of course there are things we all should.

Of course there's a right, and it's the only.

But let the sea-doors and air-doors open!

The doors of fire and night!  We can walk from

 

the world and still be of the world, of the

endless fixing.  Injustice hurts the  heart.

So we must.  But meanwhile, hunger. An

 

exquisite meal made by your enemy,

brought to table by your foe, who

you tip twenty-five percent. When he gets

 

into his car, a murmuration in

tune to the bass line, starlings taking risks

and just killing it.  Dusk rises from the

 

pavement like a mist.  He's in no danger.

Neither are you, the arugula of

your salad poised on your fork, becoming

 

a part of you bite by bite.  It's in a

country, this country, this happens, my friend.

Note: This golden shovel uses Joy Harjo's “This Morning I Pray for My Enemies” from Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings: Poems.


Mary Ann Honaker is the author of Becoming Persephone (Third Lung Press, 2019), Whichever Way the Moon (Main Street Rag, 2023), and the forthcoming Night is Another Realm Altogether (Sheila-Na-Gig, 2026). Her poems have appeared in Bear Review, DIAGRAM, JMWW, Juked, Little Patuxent Review, Rattle.com, Solstice, Sweet Tree Review, Tuskegee Review, and elsewhere. She currently lives in Beckley, West Virginia. https://maryannhonaker.wordpress.com/

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